it’s very strange because sometimes you stop speaking to people you thought you would be close to forever, and sometimes you meet someone randomly and end up becoming fast friends. our relationships with each other are so fluid. it’s very disconcerting because sometimes you have so many good memories with someone but you haven’t talked to them for years, what do you do with all that nostalgia? where do you keep it? sometimes people do you wrong but you might run in to them downtown on sixth avenue and you don’t feel bitter because your life is full of new and beautiful people, and you don’t have time to feel jaded because wow, last february it rained every single day and today it was so warm outside it felt like summer.
farahjoon: I was thinking about this all day yesterday. I was driving and I was ruminating on people who I’ve lost, both unintentionally and deliberately, throughout the past 5 years or so and, yes, it’s bittersweet, but also it’s about harnessing and facilitating and stimulating my own personal/political/spiritual growth — it’s about better understanding and accepting my identity and finding people who have the same backgrounds, goals, frustrations, impulses, and values as I do.
(I moved the attributions to make it more clear who said what, I hate that it’s so confusing.)