the thought that i will be going on to and off of meds and making all sorts of compromises just so that i can leave my house without losing my shit for the rest of my life keeps me up at night
Ugh I am sorry. On a good day (no extra pain or anxiety or spasms) I take 17 prescription pills at various times, plus supplements like magnesium and stuff, but I find it better than the alternative, given my mental and physical ailments. I’d be literally paralyzed, and mentally undone. I know it’s not as simple as that for others, plus the issues of finding the right combination of medications, dealing with side effects, and paying for the fucking stuff. If you ever want to talk, I am around. I think it’s good we’re talking on tumblr about it, too.